Thursday, August 28, 2008

Mr. Right?!?!

Shea and I were watching one of our favorite movies last night, Practical Magic. She is Sally. I am Gilly. If you've seen the movie, you would know that Gilly "has the worst taste in men" as Sally frankly states as they are rolling the twice corpse'd body of the sexy Bulgarian/vampire/ cowboy, Jimmy, into a freshly dug grave. Whilst I watch the mystical rain soak into his beautiful hair, Shea looks at me and says, "You really do have the worst taste in men".

This morning at work I was speaking to a friend about our roles in relationships. I was saying how normally I drive, I want a great career, and I decide how I normally put everything I have into a relationship. He than asked me what the roles the men in my life are like. After snorting down a laugh about quote on quote "MEN in my life" it hit me that they don't match anything that I want in myself. They don't have money. They don't have Careers. They don't own a car, let alone a dream. They normally, have no interest in relationships. And alas, I still want them. "Huh!!" I said, as the thought of why I like 'these men' hit me right between the eyes. Why have I NEVER noticed this before.

Is it because I don't care? Is it because even though they aren't what I really want, they are still good guys? Is it because I'm so blind I don't really look at who they are but the potential that is there? I must be crazy.

Even though I think almost every guy I meet is attractive in some way or another, I still don't fall for people easily. But when I do, it's hard. I could only think of a few Men that I have given my time and attention to. Here is a list of my "Mr. Rights";

Mr. "Only friends". This one was the guy that I had given so much time, effort, and resources on. As desperately sad as this may sound, I was chasing him. He was my first young crush. I was his friend. We were best friends for a long time. He was a great person. Lively, artistic, funny, charming, attractive, and welcoming to everyone. His family was even more inviting and delicious. I loved them. I still miss his family even now. I felt apart of his family. I felt like I fit in, which was a really hard thing to do when you are a almost bald, Gothic, and a depressed teenager. I loved him as a best friend and I fell for him. I fell hard. He kept picking me up saying "I love you, as a friend". And that was enough. We were friends. Best friends. And then we weren't. I harbored harsh feelings for a long time. It broke my heart that I was bitter at the loss of our friendship and he was happy. I've gotten over this a long time ago and I wish him the best in life.

Mr. Homeless. I met this one in Jr. High. He was the funniest guy I've ever meet!! Even now, he is really hard to top. He wasn't my type, physically. Light brown hair, blue eyes, and extremely clean cut. He was as metro as a guy can get. I was still very attracted to him. He was the nicest guy I've ever meet. He was also homeless. A secret only I and two other people in our school knew about. He got pretty popular. Even in his circumstances he didn't get himself into trouble. He wasn't into anything except drama class. (which I hated.) But we were friends even with our differences. During high school we lost touch. I still miss him.

Mr. dead beat punk. This one was mean. He was abusive. He smelled. I swear he never showered. He didn't have a job. He had me pierce his face with a saftey pin. (why oh why would I do that!!?) He liked my friend. Correction, he liked my friends. He was in trouble with the law all of the time. He literally peed on my house because he was drunk. Did I see that this might be a guy not to like?? No. I saw the punk legend. I saw what he could have been.

Mr. Married. I met this one my first semester of college. He was sweet, he was smart, he was funny, and he was pysically everything that I go for. Dark red brown hair. Brown Eyes. Wide smile with straight teeth. I wore heels and he was still taller than me. He kept his arm around me as he walked me to my next class. He took me out to lunch frequently. He even wore a brown leather jacket. We liked the same music, movies and books. 30 minutes before our group project for our final assignment in Business devolpment class, he was rubbing my hand while we were going over our parts in the presentation. A beautiful skinny blonde came strolling in the class room. I didn't notice her until he jumped back from me. The hand touching stopped. Lots of looks between me and him happened as she sat in his lap and kissed his hansome face. She was wearing a wedding ring. He did not. Now I know why. We had a few classes to go for the semester. I started going to the lectures on the opposite days. He called and emailed a few times but I wouldn't answer. I still wonder if I should have dragged his cheating self to light when his wife was sitting there between us.

Now I don't have a lot of relationship experience, but I really feel that even the wrong ones can teach you many things about your future right one(s). The important thing is that we learn. I am using this epiphany as a stepping stone. The memories of guys in my past have made me realize what I want and what I don't. And right now, I feel like I have pretty good taste in men.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Did you know this about me??

1. What is your best friends name? Shannon
2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?black
3. What are you listening to right now? she's gone by John Mayer
4. Whats your favorite number?3
5. What was the last thing you ate? PB&J ( I'm a good cook...)
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? white
7. How is the weather right now? windy
8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone? Mistress Butter Buns
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? hair and eyes
10. Do you have a significant other? no
11. Favorite TV show? right now... prison break
12. Siblings? 2 sisters, 1 step sister, 1 step brother, 1 sister Newman
13. Height?5'9" on a good day. lol
14. Hair color? mocha level 3
15. Eye Color? grey green. They're boring.
16. Do you wear contacts? When I can afford them.
17. Favorite Holiday? It would probably be Christmas, but I hate the snow, so Halloween
18. Month? October
19. Have you ever cried for no reason? Of course. I am a girl.
20. What was the last movie you watched? Anchorman, with Shannon. I can't tell if she liked it.
21. Favorite Day of the Year? Black Friday
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? ha! Not if I really wanted them.
23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)? No, but I fell out of my bed on my head last week. Does that count?
24. Hugs or Kisses? both
25. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
26. Do you want your friends to respond to this? they best. lol
27. Who is most likely to respond? Lera
28. Who is least likely to respond? London
29. What books are you reading? BOM, Frankenstein, writer's guide, and the Three Musketeers.
30. Piercings? down to two.
31. Favorite movies? Big Fish, Stranger than Fiction, and The Holiday
32. Favorite football Team? ummm, whoever. They're hot.
33. what were u doing before this? went to the store for bread.
34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? salted!!
37. Dogs or cats? don't care. Both
38. Favorite flower? Lillies
39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do? Of course.
40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex? Shannon, is there something that you're not telling me??
41. Have you ever loved someone? I still love lots of people.
42. Who would you like to see right now? My mom
43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten? I don't think so...
44. Have you ever fired a gun? no. never will.
45. Do you like to travel by plane? yes.
46. Right-handed or Left-handed? Right handed
47. How many pillows do you sleep with?4 on the bed but I only use one.
48. Are you missing someone? always
49. Do you have a Tattoo? nope. Thank goodness!!! I used to want some pretty stupid things.
50. Anybody that you know that you'd go on a date with? of course. I've told him too. see #22

Memories of strawberries

You should try this on your blog page too. What you do is take a random word and make a list of memories or things that you think of when you hear the word. Today my word choice is strawberries.

Strawberry fields forever. I love the Beatles. In fact my favorite song ever is by this band. And as of lately I've had one of there songs stuck in my head morning, noon and night. I love them. I love the John. I begin my tribute to strawberries to a great song of theirs; Strawberry fields forever, "Always no sometimes think it's me, but you know I know when it's a dream."

Chocolate covered strawberries. I am not a dancer. I am not graceful. I'm a mess. My dance partner for senior ball was even worse. Instead of picking the guy that asked me to go with, who did dance (and wore the same tux as my date lol), I choose my friend. Enough said, we didn't dance. We did however come back to my house with our group of friends and eat tons of chocolate covered strawberries. It might have been a "night of magic and romance" but no. This was my group of friends. And we like to party. We had a food fight instead. PS/ Chocolate covered strawberries stain everything.

Strawberry Shortcake. I was born in 1984. This great year landed me in the coolest TV show world ever. Strawberry Shortcake, Smurfs, Jem, Pee Wee's Play House, Gumbi, Care Bears, and Transformers. These childhood "babysitters" explain a lot about me.

Sexy Strawberries. I am an avid reader. I love books. But I'm very careful about what I read. I am a clean girl. I however didn't know about the overly sexy scene that Sophie Kinswella was going to throw in one of her stories as a curve ball of "hot" that interestingly contained strawberries. (((cyber blush)))

Strawberry Blond. I naturally have blond hair. I dye it darker because I believe that brunettes have more fun. My hair has been a box of crayola crayons. Constantly changing through Jr. High, High School, and then onto Cosmetology College. Many of my teachers in high school made me laugh; On the first day of school, I was the strawberry blond in the back row. If I was called to the office, I was the strawberry blond one. If I was to show a new student around, I was the strawberry blond one in the corner. All of this happened when I had my platinum blond, raven dyed, or purple chunky colored hair.
I don't get it.

Strawberry pop-tarts. I have a major addiction to these Delicious treats. I remember I used to buy many boxes at a time. They were with me through "bear lake cabin" visits, College budgets, and forget to bring lunch to work days. So here is a standing ovation to my sugar-filled-drug-addictive-pockets-of-bliss.

Monday, August 18, 2008

family fued.

My Sister and her husband need to survey 100 LDS people for an YSA activity.

If you are able to, please take the time to fill out this survey (just copy and paste the questions, fill in your answers and either post them as a comment on our blog or email them to her at dollar_five@hotmail.com).

1. Who is your favorite Book of Mormon hero?
Cptn Moroni
2. Name a primary song that includes hand gestures.
Once there was a snowman
3. What is one of the young women values?
Faith
4. How many minutes a day do you study the scriptures?
20, ouch! I need to get my scripture on.
5. Who is your favorite modern day prophet?
Hinkley
6. What calling would scare you the most to receive?
I hate writting this because I don't want it... Gospel Doctorine teacher
7. What temple do you visit most often?
Salt Lake
8. Name a reason a mother would leave a church meeting with her baby.
diaper change
9. What is something teachers borrow from the library to use in their lessons?
C & E
10. What would be the most exciting place to serve a mission?
Greese
11. Name a general authority known for giving great conference talks.
Eyring
12. Name someone who was present at Christ’s birth.
Angels :)
13. What is an item you would see at a ward potluck?
pasta salad, lol
14. What percentage of the time are you on time for church?
almost 100%, but I'm a freak about time.
15. Name something an LDS family might do on a Sunday afternoon.
sleep
16. What is a common assignment given for Family Home Evening?
prayer
17. Name is something/someone that is often prayed for.
missionarys
18. What LDS movie have you seen the most times?
best two years. I worked at Seagull for a year. It was on a loop... sigh.
"well I'm ret to go"
19. What can usually be found in a member’s food storage?
peaches
20. Name an uncomfortable item of clothing that church goers wear.
tights

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Random beloved poem

October by Robert Frost


O hushed October morning mild,
Thy leaves have ripened to the fall;
Tomorrow's wind, if it be wild,
Should waste them all.
The crows above the forest call;
Tomorrow they may form and go.
O hushed October morning mild,
Begin the hours of this day slow.
Make the day seem to us less brief.
Hearts not averse to being beguiled,
Beguile us in the way you know.
Release one leaf at break of day;
At noon release another leaf;
One from our trees, one far away.
Retard the sun with gentle mist;
Enchant the land with amethyst.
Slow, slow!
For the grapes' sake, if they were all,
Whose elaves already are burnt with frost,
Whose clustered fruit must else be lost--
For the grapes' sake along the wall.

Sweet names

This was fun, you should do it to. If you read this you are tagged.

YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car):
Freckles Aerio

YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR NAME: (”The” + Your fav hobby/craft, fav weather element + “Tour”):
The Game Rain Tour

YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, favorite cookie):
Plum devils food

YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
SNIC

YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal):
Brown Camel


YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born):
Eve Navarre

YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first):
Nicsa

SUPERHERO NAME: (”The” + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink):
The White Water

STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy):
Wild Hot Skor (that sounds really bad!)

WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names):
May Edwin

WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter):
Pabst Phoenix

SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower):
Fall Lily

CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now + “ie” or “y”):
Apple Fishnetie

HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree):
Coke Maple

Friday, August 8, 2008

Demon Moo

This blog is dedicated to one of the coolest girls you will ever meet. Her name is DM. Obviously not because of the size, but because of dragon tails. Don't ask, I've never seen it. But one of our ex-co-workers, Krispy Tarter, gave her this nickname; Mandy Moo Moo. It then transferred into Moo Moo, than to Demon Moo, and lastly DM. DM and I were cubicle neighbors and the best-est of work friends. (I still have the tattoo of her face on my shoulder. lol)






Work has been doing some changes lately. Sigh. We all have been moved. Well not me, but everyone around me. My work family has been taken from me. No more creepy uncle Chad, no more sweet aunt Selina, no more say it how it is cousin Vangana, and no more sista from anotha mista DM.


Now we can no longer throw notes (that look like crumpled trash to keep it on the down low.), play hangman, stand up and give each other the "I'm-going-to-go-Rambo-on-this-place-but-I'll-give-you-a-5-minute-notice-so-you-can-leave-before-the-storm" look, or throw a random slinky attack over the top of the wall.


So here is a memoir to the Demons. Now we can't just stand up and talk we have to go to the next row. whimper.




Friday, August 1, 2008

BREAKING DAWN!!

I just finished BD this morning!! It is INSANE!!!
whoot whoot.