Saturday, November 24, 2012

Weight Watchers


I’ve started Weight Watchers…again.  I really want to lose weight, be healthier, and feel more confident.  I started weight watchers the week before Thanksgiving, the week of our busy season at work, and (TMI) the first day of my period.  This morning I went for weigh in with a little bit of concern.  However, my worry was not needed; I lost 10 lbs. HOOT!! 
I’m excited to change this part of my life.  I have had a lot of changing over the past few years.  I think all of my change has been for the better. 
I’m going to keep monthly tabs on my weight loss and update them on my blog.  Wish me luck!!

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Recipe-Vanilla Buttercream Frosting

I made these cupcakes for a Young Women's activity.  This is the first time that I made homemade icing...and it was delicious!  I found out the hard way that icing is never an exact science.  The exact measuring of the powdered sugar will always change.  The first time I made this I only needed half a bag.  The second time, I needed a bag and a half.  When you make this recipe try to have some extra powdered sugar just in case it doesn't turn out thick enough. 

Vanilla Buttercream Frosting

1 cup butter, softened
1 (32 oz.) package powdered sugar
2/3 cup milk
1 tablespoon vanilla extract

Beat butter at medium speed with an electric mixer until creamy; gradually add powdered sugar alternately with milk, beating at low speed until blended after each addition. Stir in vanilla.

Monday, November 12, 2012

Just another Q&A

Beverage: Diet coke with a little bit of Root Beer.
Color: White
Desert: Anything baked with a lot of chocolate.
Food: sushi or enchiladas or anything my sisters cook
Article of clothing: scarves
Meal of the day: Dinner
Feature of yourself: loyal
Best quality in a guy/girl: reliability
Phrase: ‘Just saying’
Song: currently…Glitter
Musical Artist/Band: Sia <3>
Sport: Shopping!!
Movie: Big Fish
TV Show: Bones and The Walking Dead
Radio Station: 97.1 ZHT
Number: 3
Day of the week: Saturday
Season: fall
Restaurant: Mimi’s Cafe
Type of music: Alt, down tempo, Indie
Time of day: night! Hoot
Place to chill: Annie’s place
Scripture Hero: Ammon
Siblings: 2 sisters - London and Lera, 1 stepsister- Katie, and 1 step brother -Adam
Book: The Host, The Hunger Games, and Harry Potter
Cash or Card: Cash, thanks to my budget.
Are you happy: Yes
Current mood: overwhelmed
Your best trait/characteristic: My sense of humor
Your worst trait/characteristic: My sense of humor…
Your most prized possession: My memories
The best thing to happen to you in your life: Having a testimony of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
Do you live in a home, apartment, duplex or mobile home: I live in my sister’s home.
Do you live in the city, suburbs or country: I’m rocking the suburbs.
Do you believe in yourself: I’m learning to.
Any pets: A fish named Spindle.
Your zodiac sign: Sun – Leo, Moon- Virgo
Nickname: Rie, Rie Pie, star, Sa-riely Cyrus, Sari-ri…
Church calling: Young Women’s Miamaid Advisor
Something cool about you: I’m moving into my own place in March…yay!!
Do you save your money or spend it when you get your hands on it: I used to spend it like crazy but I’m much better at saving now.
The one person you can trust with any thing: The Savior
Favorite website: Pinterest
Your current car: Chevy Malibu
Is the glass half empty or half full: both
Fast Food or Restaurant: restaurant
Sleeping or Eating: ugh, both.
Favorite Holiday: BLACK FRIDAY!!
Talking or Listen to someone talk: listen
Something random: I keep the tabs from energy drinks that lead me to a good day.
Personality or Looks: I like being attracted to both.
Best advice you've ever received: To let go of things that hold me back.
Set your own path or follow the crowd: I find a crowd that is on my path.
Are you laid back or high strung: half and half
What annoys you most in a person: Someone that always acts like a victim.
What's one thing that you have done that you're most proud of: Received and kept my temple recommend.
If you could be anyone who existed in the world, who would you be: I would be me, but with Emma Watson’s looks and income please.
If you could be anywhere right now where would you be: a spa!
One thing you can't live without: The love and support of my family.

Saturday, November 10, 2012

love and connection

I ran across something last year that changed me personally and socially, I feel for the better. I find that I keep running into moments where I feel I need to share my core change with others. I want to share it with you! I guess it’s more appropriate to say I want to share “her” with you.
I want to introduce Brene Brown. I have never met her, but her words and novels have lifted my spirits and have given me ways to accept myself more completely than I could imagine. She is a qualitative researcher who shares the importance of nurturing authenticity, love and belonging, and the importance of having an irrepressible spirit in our families and communities. In the beginning, her research focused on understanding damage done by shame and how we prevent and repair those wounds. I was transformed from studying her research. I’ve found that her perceptions were true and by understanding and using following we have a much stronger sense of self and of influence by:
Mindfully practicing authenticity during our most soul-searching struggles is how we invite grace, joy, and gratitude into our lives.
Knowing our imperfections do not make us inadequate; they are what connect us to eachother and to our humanity. Our vulnerabilities are not weaknesses; they are powerful reminders to keep our hearts and minds open to the reality that we’re all in this together.
Connecting to friends; uplifting them, relating, and sharing their own stories to let them know they are never alone.

         I'm trying to apply her findings and ways of wholehearted living into my life. She explains how even with imperfections we are worthy of belonging, worthy of love.  That I am worth love.
           Brene teaches that we surround ourselves with people we can feel connection and worthiness around.We also need to set boundaries with those that want to bring us down.
Brene teaches the difference of Guilt and Shame;
Guilt- I made a mistake
Shame- I am a mistake
Shame often creates feelings of fear, blame, and disconnection. Shame is normal feeling to have, but not all the time. I felt shame constantly. I know Heavenly Father would never allow his children to live in this frame of mind and the Holy Ghost will never validate it. Satan makes this world a discouraging place. Communication and asking for help is frowned upon. WHY? We need some more courageous people to change that! He needs us to change that.
I think it’s important that we reach out when we need help, share our successes/mistakes, and be able to know that there is a safe zone of acceptance/progression. No one relates to perfection. Yes, we all strive for it but that is not how we relate to each other. Where could you connect with someone that is good at everything? We simply wouldn’t.
There is power in our vulnerabilities and flaws. They are what connect us all.
The people I am currently close to are truly inspired by a much higher power. I know I am growing by leaps and bounds with all of the differences and strengths that surround me.
I in no way deem myself as a master of self-acceptance, but her book has helped me on a daily basis since I’ve read it and started to become resilient with shame.
I just hope you all know how wonderful you all are. You are deliciously unique and I am grateful for the strong relationships I have in my life.
I would love it if you are interested in watching Brene Brown’s talk on TED. It’s about 20 minutes and this is what started as what I call my “core change”. I would love to hear what you think about it. (There are a few swear words.)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iCvmsMzlF7o
If you are into reading or have time to read her book, I highly recommend it. It’s called “The Gifts of Imperfection – Let go of who you think you’re supposed to be and embrace who you are. A guide to wholehearted living” By Brene Brown Ph.D, L.M.S.W.

Recipe -Spicy Honey Chicken

I'm not a great cook.  I tend to ruin meals, treats and pans when I attempt to refine my "talent" in the kitchen.  However, earlier this year Lera made Spicy Honey Chicken for a family gathering.  It is the best chicken I've ever had in my life.  Obviously I craved it and I wanted to try to cook it.  At the time I was living in an apartment and didn't have access to a grill. (I'm sure the fire department is grateful for that...)  So, I tried combining the below in a baking pan and used the oven.  It came out wonderful!  This recipe is cannot fail.  Whether you are a great cook, like my sister, or a not so great cook, like me, this recipe works!  Everything about it is delicious.  Enjoy. :)

Spicy Honey Chicken8 boneless, skinless chicken thighs
2 t vegetable oil

Rub:
2 teaspoon granulated garlic
2 teaspoon chili powder
1/2 teaspoon onion powder
1/2 teaspoon coriander
1 teaspoon kosher salt
1 teaspoon cumin
1/2 teaspoon chipotle chili powder

Glaze:
1/2 cup honey
1 tablespoon cider vinegar

Combine all spices together in small bowl and mix well. Trim off any excess fat from chicken pieces. Pat dry. Drizzle oil over chicken and rub in with your hands to lightly coat all the pieces. Then toss chicken with the spice rub to coat all sides well. Use your hands and get in there! Grill chicken for 3-5 minutes on each side, until cooked through. While chicken is cooking, warm honey in the microwave so it’s not so thick. Add the vinegar and combine well. Reserve 2 tablespoons honey glaze for later. Take the rest and brush on chicken (both sides) in the final moments of grilling. After letting the meat sit for a few minutes, drizzle remaining 2 tablespoons of glaze over thighs.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

TOP 5 - FAVORITE SINGERS/BANDS

#5 ANGUS AND JULIA STONE
#4 Mumford and Sons
#3 MUSE
#2 SNOW PATROL
#1 SIA

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Memories of Star

You should try this on your blog page too. What you do is take a random word and make a list of memories or things that you think of when you hear the word. Today my word choice is 'star'.


My previous Bishop, Drew Menlove, ever the wise and good man that he is told me about the North Star. He said that the North Star is so bright because it is really two individual stars. There is a star that is placed almost directly beside it and together they shine extra bright, giving direction to all that seek it. He told me that is how a marriage is, beautiful, brighter by being together and dependable when looking for direction.

Bright Star, a nickname I received from an old friend who said that I reminded him of the poem by John Keats. He said that my loyalty and love were as constant as a star. Star is one of my favorite nick names and I will always treasure that conversation, and that person’s kind words.

Rock Star Recovery – the best energy drink on the face of the earth. It has gotten me through many parties, road trips, airport lines, writing episodes, all-nighters, and many 40 hour work weeks that just needed a helping hand. It’s a lemonade flavored savior.

Stargirl, a novel written by Jerry Spinelli, is a book I was given on my 17th birthday. The book is about a compassionate home schooled girl that is sent to public school for 10th grade. She keeps her strength and individuality in school, in a relationship, and during trials. This was given to me by my childhood friend Levi with a note saying that I reminded him of stargirl. (Later I found out that he didn’t read it until after he gave it to me. lol)

A new star shining down it’s celestial glow on the celestial King, leading 3 wise men that look up in faith, and marking the night where the souls of the world felt their worth. Oh Holy night, my favorite Christmas song tell us that ‘Led by the light of faith serenely beaming, with glowing hearts by His cradle we stand. So led by light of a star sweetly gleaming…”

My favorite movie stars: Ewan Mcgregor, Kate Winslet, Johnny Depp, Kevin Spacey, Helena Bonham Carter, Drew Barrymore, Ginnifer Goodwin, Alan Rickman, Emma Thompson, Will Ferrell, and Anna Farris.

Coldplay’s beautiful song Yellow, “Look at the stars, look how they shine for you…”

The Stansbury Park Observatory is one of my favorite places for a low budget and beautiful night. It consists of the Harmon’s Observatory and the Donna Pease Wiggins Refractor House. The two large telescopes are the Grim Telescope and the Bogden Telescope, depending on the time of year you can look into the celestial glories of space and see the moon, a small moon crossing Jupiter, the rise of Saturn, Venus’ bright orb, and many other breathtaking sights. My favorite constellation is the owl cluster, go figure, and I will never forget those shining watchful stars that are so perfectly placed to make the outline.

Your Falling Star, the first love song that I wrote, I still think it’s pretty adorable.

Monday, November 5, 2012

10th Anniversary for TOFW


This year was the 10th anniversary for Time Out For Women. I am so grateful I was able to go! It is always a weekend full of spiritual and educational lifts. At TOWF every speaker is amazing; every message is delivered with clarity and the peace of the spirit, I want to buy every product and snack that is being sold, and I leave feeling more connected with my savior. I laughed, I cried, and I grew as a Latter Day Saint Women… and do not even get me started on how much I adore the totes!

This year’s motto is “Seek the Good”. We were taught to seek those that are lonely, to give company and aid. Seek the good things that exist in our lives right now, what life has waiting for us, and what life needs us to bring to it. Seek forgiveness. Seek a personal relationship with the Savior. Seek opportunities to give. Seek blessings. Seek occasions to receive blessings and help. Seek truth. Seek happiness. Seek connection. Seek purpose. Seek individual worth and chances to shine. Seek talent. In all, search for a full and exalted life. Colossians 3:23, “And whatsoever ye do, do it HEARTILY…”, no matter your current life circumstances, you can add more good to this world, to your home, to your family, to your life.

I took notes during this event, but they pale in comparison to the spirit that was in that room. I wish that every woman could hear the words that were shared that weekend. There were a few things that I was motivated unto action to change. One was forgiveness, forgiving myself and others. I truly feel as though a weight has been lifted off of me. The second is to know who I come from and wanting to be more involved in genealogy. The third is to write more and needing to place it at a higher priority.

I wanted to share some of the highlights of that weekend in my post today.

Virginia H. Pearce
-When we have a relationship that is damaged between you and another person, the real relationship that is damaged is between you and the Savior.
-It is in our nature to feel guilt, wounds, and suffering. We cannot heal alone. We need the Savior to heal the wounds in us, and in others.
-Especially with those we love, we hold things over their heads to punish them. Instead thank them for the good things they have done. Communicate with them. Pray and allow gratitude in your relationships.

Sheri Dew
-Let us study and think about our mortal heritage; it is how we become who we are and how we see ourselves. Do we live up to the endurance, fortitude and faith of my family before me?
-Morale women have more influence than immoral women. We cannot limit the influence of women who keep their covenants.
-Men and women stand in absolute equality in front of the Lord. Since the beginning, women have never been bystanders in the gospel. We know whose church we belong to and we know what that means.
-Not having certain blessings in your life does not mean that God doesn’t love you that would be inconsistent with his character.

Jenny Oaks Baker
-Prioritize what is most important - Don’t sweat the small stuff, but you need to sweat the spiritual stuff.
-We need the strength that comes in spiritual growth. We need to unify in the gospel and put it first.

Mercy River
-Even though we can’t take away the pain of others we can always comfort them.
-When we are buried in trials that we cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel, be faithful because Heavenly Father will always send us hope.

Chris Williams
-As soon as we choose to let a burden go our perspective will change.
-You cannot know the master’s touch without feeling his concern for others. Through the Saviors mercy no one is lost. We can’t get in the way of the Savior rescuing others and we need to join the Savior in the rescue.
-Having a vision of this life is more important than having a vision of the other side of the vale.
-The Savior heals with patience, we can never force someone to heal and we must allow them the time they need.

Brad Wilcox
-The Savior’s goal is not to get us to heaven; it’s to make us heavenly.
-God loves us just the way we are but we need to be thankful that he does not want us to leave us the way we are. Allow change in our lives so we can become better people. He wants us to become his work and his glory.
-Covenants are not cold promises. They are warm engagements made on a first name basis.

Emily Freeman
-Five lessons we can learn in life: The Lord is aware of us. Trust the Lord’s word. Trust in the Lord’s timing. Learn to trust the Lord’s example. Trust that sacrifice will lead to miracles.

John Bytheway
-Regardless of our intentions we will become what we surround ourselves with.
-You are the average of the 5 people you hang out with the most.
-If you were to separate your body and your spirit which one would be the real you? The pedigree of your spirit is listed on a single line.
-Ask yourself what is one good thing that the Lord wants you to give more heart to, and then do it.







Sunday, November 4, 2012

TOP 5...Men


I thought I would use one of my easier post subjects because today has not been a fantastic day.  I’m sick...moody…exhausted.  What could cheer one up better than eye candy?  Yay for men and their handsomeness!  I think their testosterone goodness is way better than a getting ‘get well card’. 
So today I will list my current top 5 men. 
Presenting…
Ryan Reynolds

Henry Cavill
 

Mark Walburg

Ewan Mcgregor

 Last, but not least, Jared Padalecki
 
 
Ladies...you're welcome.


 

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Dear Netflix, if loving you is wrong I don’t want to be right.


Hello, my name is Sariah Nichols and I’m a Netflixaholic. Recovering from back surgery with a very tight budget I find myself experiencing the symptoms of Netflix addiction by neglecting other activities, impaired control of time spent on Netflix, continual use of Netflix, large amounts of time spent in Netflix related activities, withdrawal…

Seriously, I need help.  I used to joke that books have been my longest relationship, then it was facebook, then pinterest, and now Netflix and I have kind of promised each other we would love one another, for better or for worse, until death do us part.  Being on a budget, and on bed rest for a few months, Netflix has been a huge comfort to me.  It helped me get through physical therapy.  It helped my pass time when friends and family had their own lives and jobs to attend to (or if they went someplace that required walking...sitting...standing, all things I couldn't do).  Netflix shows helped me laugh and not focus on temporary pain or trails.  I was entertained in the most boring and broke of times.  And all of these were done in a way that I could pay off some bills and help my back heal.  I am so grateful for electronics and the ease we have with good, cheap entertainment.
During the last 6 months I have watched good, bad and ugly (embarrassing) things on Netflix.  I will break down some of the things I watched and hopefully I’m not alone in the boat with how much time I have spent with this website.
The Good, Bad and Ugly:
24
Biggest Loser
Lost
Parks and Recreation
White Collar
Supernatural
The Walking Dead
Prison Break
Mad Men
Gossip Girl
Bones
Malcolm in the Middle
Grey’s Anatomy
Firefly
My So Called Life
The Breakout Kings
Heroes
Warehouse 13
Vampire Diaries
Ally Mcbeal
Nip/tuck
Desperate Housewives

… and many, many more

I moved from TV to movies to documentaries, even the "just for kids" section have been watched while I’m with my nephews.  Nothing is safe.
Any suggestions on what to watch? ;)

PS.  I’m not lying when I say that I have Netflix playing as I type this. 

Friday, November 2, 2012

Introduction to The SPINDLE

I posted the first chapter of my novel The SPINDLE. This is the rough draft that I am working on for NaNoWriMo. It has not been edited and I’m sure many grammatical errors are waiting to be found. If you find some or if you think something should be reworded, please let me know. I will only be posting the 1st chapter for now. I hope you enjoy it.


Living in Navarre, a small town in Ohio, 15 Year old Lily Tippin is about to find that things are not always how they seem. After a murder in the local cemetery, Lily is brought into a world of fallen angels, ghosts and ancient family secrets. With a father that is never there and a mother who passed away when she was 7, Lily is taken into the Satoh home to live.

With danger around every corner Lily learns how to defend herself in the Spindle; a family owned training facility full of combat, weapons, and a place Lily can call home. Lily will have to learn what it takes to become a warrior and what it means to be part of a family.

The Spindle, by Rie Nichols


Chapter 1
The Graveyard Eden
The small village of Navarre held one graveyard, and even though the citizens thought themselves not prone to idle gossip, there were plenty of occasions when the Graveyard of Eden was said to be “haunted”. With all of its large stone statues and elaborately carved tombs the graveyard carried a type of forced reverence upon all that entered its surrounding rod iron gates. The rare passerby would take glimpses of the hollowed grounds, but they stayed their distance when the setting sun left deep shadows that rolled across the grass and cobblestone walkways. Even the residents in Navarre, who would go to Eden to remember loved ones lost, didn’t linger. And the Graveyard of Eden would close her gates every night at ten o’clock to keep the peace for those who rested there.

It happened once before, people began to say about the great lightning storm that hit about a decade prior. The town lost power for days and businesses shut down. Neighborhoods were left flooded. The graveyard Eden had shown the worst aftermath; tombs were left cracked and broken and large patches of grass were scorched off the ground. The storm even claimed five lives; all directly outside the cemetery gates.

Three days after the storm, a local found a child in an open grave. Though comatose, dehydrated, and her hair left stark white from what must have been a lightning strike, she was still alive. The girl was taken to the hospital and remained there during the weeks it took to clear rubble and replant the grass. It wasn’t until the graveyard’s gates were opened to the public that the girl was released to at home care.

Since that frightening storm, Ohio’s bad weather had passed by the town. Eden’s grounds had lain quiet during that time.

It was a shock to all when statues started to fall over and the faces of the artistic tombs were being smashed into rubble over night. There was no forced entry on the locked gate. Everyone knew that there was no way to climb the tall and narrow fence that protected the grounds. And still, as it were, the graves continued to be vandalized. Talk on how to keep the Graveyard of Eden safe circulated from house to house. In the end the village turned to their trusted watchmen.

Harold Rasmussen was a large man with a gentle smile. He had combed over grey hair that he had cut every month at the nearby barber school. He was a humbly dressed man that normally had some kind of dessert stain on his loosely tucked shirts. Harold was in his late sixty’s and yet he still had a soft hint of a childhood stutter. He was well liked and enjoyed his social outings playing bingo in the church on Drover Street. If anyone could have talent at bingo, it was Harold and nobody seemed to mind his luck when he would win the bingo money pot every month.

They knew that most of his winnings ended up going to their children and grandchildren anyways. Harold was known to spend his earnings, and much of his retirement money, buying treats from the dairy for the neighborhood children.

Most people thought he was a good friend to have around; he would take homemade lunches to the widows around his block, he would dye hundreds of Easter eggs every year for the Navarre Easter Egg Hunt-a-Rama, and he would plow the snowy narrow roads with his truck in the early hours of the morning after a blizzard would pass through.

He was also one of the most respected watchmen of the Navarre-Massillon neighborhood watch. He presided over every meeting the watch held in the last forty-some years and over these last few months, it wasn’t rare for Harold to hear people talk about the strange things that were happening in the local graveyard.

The villagers started to spread news about a new gang that was begging to form. But these whispers didn’t bother Harold. The rumors that were getting on his nerves were the ones about ghosts. He didn’t waste his time talking about make believe and he didn’t believe in the paranormal.

Not everyone was on the same line with Harold, there was one woman in particular that seemed to believe in any story that involved the paranormal, and that was Mary Satoh. Mary was the village’s herbalist and seemed to know a lot of history about the graveyard. She would share stories with anyone who would listen while she talked about ghosts that wandered the cemetery at night. In her store on Wednesday nights she would have sharing time. Children would sit on her special circle rug and quietly eat popsicles while Mary would share a tales of make believe. The overly imaginative things that Mary could think up always took Harold by surprise.

Oddly enough, Harold and Mary were kind of a couple. Though Harold didn’t agree with Mary’s enthusiasm in the supernatural, she would tell one story that made Harold laugh every time. The story was about a ghost that only spoke through a hand puppet. It wasn’t the story that brought his laughter; it was the sound of Mary’s voice as she tried to speak with a British accent.

Harold couldn’t believe his luck in fining Mary at such a late age. During the years that his college friends started to settle down he wondered why he never found his soul mate. Instead of marriage Harold joined the war and decided that he would hold his fire on marriage, little did he know that he would wait until the ripe age of 59 to find the one he wanted to spend the rest of his life with. Mary was everything he’d been looking for.

Mary was not as open about her feelings towards Harold as he was about her, she would never confirm if they were in a relationship, but people could tell that she loved him too. She would bring over her old family medicines to his house whenever his joint pain would act up. She helped him with his gardening every summer and often cooked him dinner with the delicious harvest that they grew together in his back yard. They were always with each other and they were rarely seen around town without being hand in hand.
Mary’s father had been buried in Eden and Harold took her there a couple times a week to walk by the tomb and pay their respects. Although Mary’s father passed away long ago she never missed an opportunity to go. On a breezy morning in March, they found that her father’s tomb had been violently smashed, leaving shards of stone scattered about the grounds. Since her father’s resting place was the largest tomb there, the mess was substantial, the expertly carved tomb that was well known by all, now broken and scattered.

The only thing left upright was an artistically carved statue of an angel. It stood royally with weapons and jewelry; wearing a triangular pendant around his neck, his wrists held thick bracelets, across his palms he held a thin sword, he still stood an untouched warrior. The statue looked powerful and honored to be standing by the ruined tomb he had been protecting. A few feet away from the angel stood a stone pillar that marked the center of the graveyard. Without the tomb standing next to it the pillar, the angel looked strangely out of place.

Mary picked up a small gold cylinder out of the rubble, whipped off the dust and held it close to her chest. She leaned against the pillar looking winded.

“Mary,” Harold said, “I’m so sorry th-that this happened.”

Mary looked at the statues face without blinking. Tears were sliding silently down her rounded cheeks. Harold watched as they fell leaving dark circles on her red scarf. Harold spoke softly, “I know we can have this fixed. We can make it exactly like it u-used to be. I’m sure that we have a picture of it somewhere.”

Mary didn’t reply but her gaze followed the angel’s downward glance to the long sword. Mary reached out and trailed the sword with her gloved fingertips.

“I’m sure Jared Hales could fix up a new tomb for us by next summer.” Harold continued, “He is the best sculpture on the east side. I can call him tonight to see if he c-can-”

“It can’t be fixed.” Mary interrupted softly. Her voice sounded sad and absolute.

Harold leaned over and took Mary’s small hand in his. “Mary, I’ll make this right.” He promised.

Mary lifted her gaze from the angel’s sword and looked into Harold’s face; a soft smile lifted the corners of her lips. “I need to get home.” She said, “I have to make some calls.”

“Calls about the tomb?” Harold asked.

Mary nodded.

“I can make the calls if you don’t feel up to it Mary.” Harold suggested.

“I think I should do it. But I would love some company.” Mary said giving Harold’s hand a gentle squeeze.

*

Mary made many calls through out the day; all were of people that Harold had never heard of. Probably some distant family members in Japan, he wasn’t surprised to hear Mary speak Japanese on some of the calls – only her immediate family lived in Ohio. Yet, he was surprised by the calls when he heard her speak French on three calls and once in Spanish to a man named Javier. Harold loyally stayed by her side and made sure that her untouched tea never chilled.

He left her that late afternoon with a long hug.

*

Harold’s phone rung after a particularly loud thunder clap on March twenty ninth, He answered Mary’s call. She said she needed to leave town for a few days.

“Would you like a travel partner?” Harold thought of the passport he hadn’t used in years. He walked towards his nightstand to look for it.

“No, that’s ok,” she said with a pause, “It’s not really something that would interest you.”

“Oh?” He said. “I’m sure where ever you want to go would be just fine with me.”

“I’m going to go and see,” she moved the phone to her other ear, “some family.”

“I didn’t know that you had so m-many family members. I guess I’ve only heard about your family here.”

“They’re not close relatives, but they will help me figure out what to do with the tomb.”

“What to do with it?”

“Yes, they might want to move it. I just want to make sure that we all agree on the location. It might take a while to decide. Harold?” Mary paused again.

“Yes?”

“Will you see if Hales can design a new tomb, just in case we are keeping it here?”

“I already called him.”



“Good, that’s good. I’m sorry Harold, but I have to get going.”

“Well call me if you n-need anything. I’ll just be at home picking out some good spots for our tomato seeds and waiting to hear from you.” He put the found passport back in the drawer.

“Harold…I love you.”

“I love you too.” Harold replied simply. There was no noise coming from the other end of the line. “Mary, are you ok?”

“Yes, I’m ok,” Her voice sounded hesitant, “Harold; I want you to watch out for that graveyard.”

Harold gave a small laugh. “Don’t worry about it. Everything w-will be fine.”

“I mean it; please just keep a watch out. I have a really bad feeling.”

“I will Mary.” He insured. “Do you want to talk while you pack?”

“I’m already packed. I’m traveling light.”

“You’re already packed? This must be important.”

“It is Harold.” She had tears in her voice, “I’ll miss you.”

“I already miss you. Have a safe trip sweetheart. Call me when you can.”

*

Harold’s willingness to serve his local community over the past years gave him rank over the coveted phone tree directory. The next morning he called every volunteer listed and set up the next Navarre-Massillon Neighborhood Watch gathering.

With a couple meetings over the next few days, having developed well thought out plans over some pot luck snacks, they decided to have a volunteer patrol the Graveyard of Eden every night until the culprit was caught.

Most of the watchmen were afraid to walk Eden at night, what with all of the ghost stories that have been floating around, but there were still a few who volunteered to take turns with a night shift. The members of the neighborhood watch looked in awe as Harold raised his hand to volunteer for every Friday, Saturday, and Sunday night.

A calendar was drawn up with everyone’s shift listed for the next month. Today being the last day in March, and a Friday, Harold took a few lemon bars for the road and drove to the Graveyard equipped with the gate keys and one overlarge yellow flashlight.

*

Harold pulled up to the old shed in the back of the cemetery. He brushed cobwebs off the inventory list that was nailed to the inner wall and searched for something to help clear out the broken rubble. The zipper on his Neighborhood Watch jacket rebelliously slid down allowing the night air to sneak in and bring a chill.

Mandy Schroder had made all of the Navarre – Massillon Neighborhood Watch jackets for those that would patrol at night. Even with the color of green being overly bright in the day, the color would grow oddly dull under the moonlight; giving no reflective protection to the passing cars in the neighborhood. The back of the jacket was covered with the letters spelling out “N-M, Watchers” in large black letters adding to the dullness of color a camouflaged look. Mandy made Harold’s jacket “extra roomy in the tummy region” which probably why the zipper never stayed in place. Harold zipped his jacket and started to pull out tools that would help him clear the grounds.

He made a deal with Jared that he would have the mess cleared up by sunrise; that way Jared could measure the ground in the morning and start working on a design for the new tomb.

Harold pushed an empty three-wheeled barrel along the hilly pathways until he reached the out skirts of the broken rubble. The wheels rolled smooth and quiet across the lush ground and came to an easy stop beside the center pillar of the cemetery.

Looking down, Harold found a piece of granite that used to be the keystone of the tomb’s archway. It was missing a large chunk of the inscription, but Harold had a great memory, and after reading it so many times before he knew what it had said:

“The Satoh family destiny does not lie here, but exists beyond this point of resting. Not even death can remove the bonds of this family. When one shall fall, one will rise to redeem what’s worth saving. EMG”

Harold laid the plaque into the bottom of the barrel with a sorrowful sigh. He started to work; putting jagged rocks and broken slabs of stone on top of the keystone. When the barrel started to fill up Harold’s back began to feel the weight of what he had been lifting. It was not long before he had to take a break and stretch his sore muscles.

He took a smooched treat out of his jacket pocket and lifted the sticky napkin away from the bar. He took a bite of the zesty snack and chewed contentedly. Looking across the cemetery he realized that this was the first time that he had been to the cemetery’s center with out Mary.

“I miss you Mary.” He said to the quiet.

He crumbled the napkin and threw it in the barrel and wiped his sugary hands on his pants pockets. Harold gazed up into the splotchy sky with his hands held on his hips. The cool humid air felt good on his warm face. He stared, watching a cluster of grey clouds that were floating lightly across the midnight sky. The moon was a perfect half crescent and glowed in its smooth celestial light.

A cold breeze blew over Harold’s shoulders and he shivered.

“It’s perfect.” An unfamiliar voice made Harold jump. “I must have it.” Harold turned around to face the direction of the voice and was blind sighted by the wide pillar that stood in the graveyard.

He leaned his body around the column about to ask who was there, but then he saw whom was talking.

She was the most beautiful woman Harold had ever seen.

Her body was tall, slim and feminine. Her skin was a flawless white under the inky sky. Her arms and long neck shined in contrast against the dark Purple dress that she was wearing. The material was blowing around her as if it was abnormally light.

Harold’s eyes caught the neckline that plunged down her pale torso to rest almost at her hips. Her pale lips where full and curved up into a large smile. Even with her powder white skin, the most shocking part about this woman was her hair. It was ruby red and fell fluidly across her back. Harold thought of blood on snow.

Harold wasn’t sure how long he was looking at her, but he was shaken out of his trance by another cold breeze.

It seemed out of nowhere another person stood next to her. A tall man, someone that Harold had known very well over the years.

Why was he here at this time of night?

Harold was not a nosey man and didn’t want to eaves drop on his friend, but he should know better than being in the graveyard after hours. Harold took a step beside the pillar accidentally nudging a rock with his boot. The noise was minute, but not entirely unnoticeable.

The man standing next to the beautiful women looked in Harold’s direction and a look of pure terror sparked across his face for a brief moment, he subtly held a halting hand in Harold’s direction. It was gone as quickly as it came. The tall man turned back to the women. “It will never be yours Eris.” He said calmly.

The women looked from the statue and glared at the man darkly.

He continued, “The angel looks away from you. Don’t you see? The angel is still looking down.” He spoke to the woman in a low voice. “You have to leave; there is no chance that you can take it. Staying here will only harm our plan”

The women in the flowing dress walked slowly up to the man.

“Our plan?” She questioned. “Are you going to try to stop me, my grace?” She smiled at him and put her hand on his cheek. Even though his skin was bleached out by the moonlight her hand paled in comparison – she looked as though she was glowing.

“No. You know that I’m on your side.” He said a little breathless as he held her hand against his face. His eyes closed and after a minute he started to breathe evenly once more. “But it is impossible to take it without the angel’s permission. The seer said that it had to be given to a mortal.”

Her hand clawed his face as she drew it from him repulsed. “You mean to say that no Fallen can take it.” She paused for his reply.

He cleared his throat. “Yes, no Fallen or Angel can take it without permission. The seer said that only a mortal child can be given the gift.” He continued, “One of privilege.”

A small chuckle filled the graveyard with an eerie chill.

Harold had never heard anything like that in his entire life. Her laugh made his blood turn cold. His heart felt as though it was beating out of his chest as a cold sweat broke across his brow. He had experiences like this before when he was in war, his sixth sense of fight or flight. His entire body told him that he needed to leave as fast as he could.

Harold slid behind the pillar and searched for the gate keys. His shaky hands pulled them out of his jacket pocket with a small jingle.

“One of privilege.” she sneered, “Yes, well we will just have to wait for that one to step foreword. It seems that the Satoh’s are providing more and more options for the angel.” She laughed again.

Harold started at Mary’s last name.

She continued, “I’ve watched them all and none are match for me.”

The man placed his hand on the woman’s arm trying to lead her away from the statue. “When the time comes we’ll take it from the chosen one, and then it will all be yours.”

“Wrong, you will kill the chosen one, and then take it. It is the only way to make sure that it is mine forever. The seer made that clear.” The women stared into the man’s eyes. “Am I understood?”

“Yes, Eris I understand you perfectly.” He answered.

“The tomb has been broken. It seems as though a thanks is in order. Even though the chosen one is not here to offer their blood in offering, someone else has come to help.” She said.

“Eris, you have already shown your thanks in abundance. If there is any blood shed here tonight, you be sending a warning to the Satoh’s.”

Harold heard the women laugh the same awful way as before. It was too high pitched and it seemed to carry its own echo. The sound was not human.

“Thanks are always in order. Tonight will not be my first sacrifice to obtain this gift, but it will be a significant one. I will let them be warned. The Satoh’s deserve a warning; I am being most kind. Of course, they should have the choice to flee if they want. There is no need for them to die fighting for something that isn’t even theirs yet.”

Harold couldn’t understand what he was hearing, but he was sure that Mary would be able to. He had to warn her family to leave town.

Harold took one step forward but almost ran into the woman that was now standing in front of him. He jumped, dropping his keys on the stony path.

Up close she was beyond stunning. Her body was so smooth that it was as though every angel of her had been drawn by a master artist, her soft face painted perfect white and without blemish. Even though Harold felt he had to run, he had a strong urge to touch her face, but he couldn’t move. He became locked her intense gaze.

In the same night that he saw the most beautiful thing he also saw the foulest. Her eyes were staring directly into his, and they were a diseased green. They looked as though they belonged to the corpse of a drowned victim. But they were still moving; they looked deranged and wild.

She had taken his hand and held it painfully against the statue by the pillar, pinning him. She was so strong. “You are clearly not the one.” She said with a high chuckle as she reached her other hand to slowly caress his check. “But you will be perfect to help me show gratitude on this night.”

*

A loud shrilling ring woke Lily Tippin out of a deep sleep. Her arm fumbled across her nightstand knocking her favorite book noisily to the floor. It landed spine up and lay completely flat. She hoped it didn’t fold one of the pages under the pressure. Her hand hit a familiarly hard surface and she tightened her stiff fingers around the phone.

“Hmphello?” she muttered, pushing snowy white hair off of her face. The cold plastic stung her warm cheek.

“Lily! Have your heard? Did you hear what happened?” a voice cried through the telephone.

Lily looked up at her clock through one squinted eye. Clearing her throat she stated the obvious. “It’s 6:10.”

“Wake up Lily! It horrible, something so awful happened. Harold has been murdered. It’s all over the news. A reporter is on the TV, she keeps talking about his loyalty to the neighborhood watch and how Navarre has a serial killer on the loose. There were two other murders last night in Massillon. There are police everywhere. And I mean police; there are tons here from all over Stark County.”

Her best friend Shelly knew to never call her early on a Saturday. What was she thinking? Saturday morning and the majority of Saturday afternoon was time for Lily to make up for lost sleep during the last week.

“Harold?” Lily muttered.

“Yes. Harold, he’s been murdered. Jared Hales found his body at the graveyard this morning. Well not just in the graveyard, Lily, his body was in an open grave. Like the murderer took the time to put him in a grave and then just left him there.” Shelly sounded like she was crying. “Lil, his face was missing.” She was talking so fast that she was stumbling over her words.

Lily sat up in bed letting her bundled warmth leak out of the blankets. The fresh cool air was helping her to wake up. An open grave? Lily felt a slow shiver roll down her spine.

Shelly continued, “His whole face was gone, his head was still there, but his face… his face…” she was crying.

“Wooo.” Lily tried making a scary ghost noise into the phone but her morning voice was still very rough and she chocked mid try.

Instead she chose to be serious.

“Shelly, it’s freaking early and that is seriously messed up. Harold has been like a grandpa to you and you know what he is like to me.” Lily continued, “Making up a story like this is beyond over the line. Harold in an open grave? Really?” Lily could hear someone making whimpering noises in the background.

“I’m not making this up Lil.” Shelly said, “Harold was murdered last night. We want you to come over here, there’s so much that we need to tell you. You’re not safe being alone.”

Lily realized the whimpering noises in the background was Shelly’s little sister Katrina. Wow, Shelly pulled out all of the stops this year. Katrina sounded like she was really upset.

“Shelly! What are you doing?” Lily could hear Shelly’s mother yelling in the background. Ha! Shelly will get it now.

“Ha, ha, April Fools to you too Shelly. Good night, err, morning. Have fun getting grounded by your mom.” Lily hung up the phone with annoyance and pulled her blanket up over her face. Before the blanket could push all of the cool air out of her make-shift cocoon, the phone let out another ring.

“Shelly,” Lily said as she picked up the phone, “it’s not funny.”

“Lily, darling,” it was Amaya, Shelly’s mother “I’m so sorry to bother you so early in the morning.” She sounded weary.

“Umm, it’s ok Miss Satoh, what’s going on?” Lily replied taken a little off guard opening her eyes for the first time.

“Well,” Amaya said, “I told Shelly to wait to call you until later, but since you’re up, I just wanted to invite you over. I know that your father is out of town and I didn’t think that you would want to be alone this morning. You see,” Her voice grew suddenly quiet, “Harold was murdered last night.”

Lily didn’t believe what she was hearing. She sat up and pushed the warm blankets onto the floor.

Harold was the kindest man Lily has ever met. He had been the closest thing like family to her besides Shelly and Mary, and well her father. The first memory she had of him was when Harold had spoken at her Mom’s funeral when Lily was seven, - he’s been in her life ever since.

She never felt close to her father and even though she always tried to please him-she knew she failed. After her Mom died, her dad seemed to loose himself in work. He would leave on business trips for weeks or even months at a time. His returns were always brief and they seemed unwanted as he impatiently waited to leave again.

The one thing that Lily’s dad always made sure of was that Lily wasn’t alone and that she had a roof over her head, Harold’s roof in fact. If you’ve ever heard the saying how it takes a whole village to raise a child, it was true. Lily grew up at many houses in Navarre. But the place that felt most like home was Harold’s. Lily even had a key to his house; he gave to her on her eighth birthday.

Harold took Lily to grade school every morning when she was younger. He bought her school supplies and clothes with the money that her father sent every month. She spent half of her childhood with him. He taught her how to do algebra, how to cook SOS, and even how to throw a punch. He was always at home waiting for her after school wondering how her day went. She would even see him at the Satoh’s when she would stay at their house on a Saturday nights - Harold and Shelly’s grandmother Mary were always together.

It had only been recently that Lily’s father thought she was old enough to stay at home alone. But when her father was out of town for business, like now, Lily would still stay at Harold’s place so she wouldn’t feel lonely.

A heavy wave of uncertainty went through Lily. Her mind numb as she fought what Amaya had said. It couldn’t be true. Her thoughts were interrupted by a voice.

“Lily, are you there?” Amaya asked. “Lily?”

Lily stared at the receiver not knowing what to say. She could hear Amaya talking to someone in the background but for some reason Lily didn’t care what was being said.

“Don’t worry kiddo,” Amaya continued with a small sniff, “Tom just left the house, he is going to come and get you. Lily, are you still there? Are you ok?”

The best Lily could come up with was, “Is Mary ok, does she know what happened?”

“I don’t know. We are not sure where she is. She left a couple days ago and we haven’t heard from her since.” Amaya said. “She left the family a few letters; there is one with your name on it. You can see it when you get here. I’m hoping that yours say something about where she is, because she didn’t say anything about it in ours.”

“A letter?” Lily asked.

“Yes dear, she left letters for the family; you are part of our family.” Amaya’s voice sounded rough from crying. Mary and Harold had always made her feel part of a family, but no one ever said it out loud before.

When Harold and Mary started seeing each other Mary started to bring Shelly around to play with Lily after school. Lily and Shelly had gone to different grade schools. But there was only one Middle School and one High School in Navarre and they became inseparable. Lily went from just having a father, to having grandparents and a sister – she suddenly felt a very strong need for her best friend.

“Amaya, will you please put Shelly back on the phone?” Lily asked.

“Of course, dear, I’ll see you soon.” Lily could hear Amaya talking more in the background and then Shelly took the phone. Her voice was not nearly as in control as her mother’s had been.

“Hi.” Shelly said.

“Hey, I’m sorry I hung up on you. I didn’t believe - I feel awful that I thought that you were joking.” Lily waited for Shelly to blow her nose.

Shelly didn’t acknowledge the apology. “I know. It’s horrible. I didn’t mean to break the news to you that way, I just didn’t know what to do and I really needed to talk to you. I had to know that you were ok. Are you ok?”

Lily paused to think about that question. “I don’t know. I can’t grasp it – nothing feels real.”

“I wish this wasn’t real.”

Lily remembered something horrible. “Shelly,” Lily asked hesitantly, “what did you mean that Harold’s face was missing?”

Shelly took a very uneven breath. “Well Jared showed up to the graveyard this morning, I guess he was going to start measuring the grounds for great grandfather’s new tomb. He’s the one that found him there. He was lying in an open grave –“Shelly stopped talking.

“What is it Shell?”

“Well,” she paused, “his face was just…missing. Nothing was wrong with his body, no wounds or anything, nothing was wrong besides the fact that his face was gone. The reporter on the news is saying that he had bleed to death, that maybe an animal did it. But there wasn’t a lot of blood in the grave and there were no signs of struggle and-“

“Ok, I don’t want to know anymore.” Lily said

“I’m sorry Lily, I’m so sorry.” Shelly brokenly whispered.

Both girls sat quietly on the phone until a knock rapped on the front door.

“I think your dad is here, I’ll see you soon” Lily said. She her cell back on the small table and wandered over to her dresser. Without looking at what she grabbed she pulled on a pair of pants. She grabbed her shoes and crossed the living room to open the door.

Tom was standing on Lily’s front porch with a serious look on his face. “Hello Lily, do you mind if I come inside? I have something I’d like to talk to you about.”

His request took Lily off guard. Tom was a very quiet man. He kept to himself and rarely spoke to Lily. Actually he rarely spoke to anyone. Whenever Lily would ask Shelly about her dad it seemed as though Shelly only knew the bare minimum, he worked for a bank.

Lily and Tom had never been in the same room together, let alone in an empty house together, but Lily nodded her head and stepped back. Tom walked inside the living room looking a little uncomfortable. Lily had never seen Tom so unkempt. His hair was sticking up in odd angles and his shirt wasn’t tucked in and was left half way open over his undershirt.

He paced back and forth for sometime before he spoke. Lily took a seat on the couch. Just when the silence seemed to be too much, Tom spoke. “When Mary left, to where ever she has gone to,” He sounded irritated, “she left the family some letters. There is one for you at the house.”

“Amaya told me over the phone.” Lily said.

Tom nodded his head and started to pace again, the pace seemed to be much slower than before. “I opened my letter before any one else had woken up.” He paused, “If Mary ever writes a letter it’s very personal and very important. You see, my mother is an interesting woman. She thinks that something bad is happening around us. She has told me many things in my letter that others might not believe. But I believe them.”

Lily watched as Tom took an uneasy seat beside her. She looked into his eyes wanting to calm him; she never noticed before that they had the same graceful upward slant that Mary’s had. They were also the shape of her best friend Shelly’s.

Lily suddenly felt her first small comfort after what she heard this morning. She wasn’t alone, she had the Satohs.

He took a deep breath and continued, “The most personal thing in my letter was something for you. It’s a second letter that she asked me to give to you privately. I’m still not sure that I should give it to you.” With this Tom pulled a Red envelope out of his pocket and held it in his long hands. “I didn’t open it Lily, but I need you to know that in my letter, my mother asked me to tell you that everything she wrote to you is true. She also instructed me to have you read this when you are alone.” He handed the envelope to Lily.

Lily took the envelope and looked at the “L” that was written on the face of it. Tom gazed at his empty hand.

“My mother is a very honest woman, but there are things that she believes that sound crazy. What ever is in your letter, you just - you must use logic when you read it.”

Lily folded the envelope and stuck it in her back pocket.

“Mr. Satoh,” Lily asked, “if you’re not sure I should have it, why are you giving it to me?”

His face looked extremely tired. “Well I’m not sure where my mother is and there are many important things for my family to deal with right now.” He put his hand on Lily’s shoulder. “I feel as though you are one of my children Lily. And because my mother has decided to include you in on a very dangerous secret that doesn’t mean that you have to be in on it. You see you have a choice if you want to stay here alone, it might be dangerous for you but we will do our best to make you safe here.”

“Here?”

“Well not necessarily in this house, but away from us.”

Tom saw the saddened look on Lily’s face. “Mr. Satoh, I don’t understand what you’re trying to-“

“I’m sorry. I’m not being very clear. I just want you to know that if you come with me now, you’re going to learn more about the Satoh’s than you could ever imagine.” Tom looked at Lily sternly. “We have a secret Lily and once we tell you our secret there is no going back. It can help you understand many things that are happening but it will be a very difficult thing to accept, and it could place you in danger. But we can help prepare you for what is coming.”

“Danger?”

“Yes.” Tom stood back up. “Honestly though, you might be safer being in danger with us, than in danger by yourself. If it was me, I’d rather know, but I understand if you don’t want to come with me.”

Lily didn’t understand anything that Tom was saying to her. He was staring at her looking frustrated and undecided. He was uncomfortable around Lily, he always had been before, but now he told her that she was like one of his children. Lily didn’t feel the same closeness to Tom as she did Mary, but she could tell that his words were sincere. Lily trusted him. She wasn’t sure why going with him would make her unsafe but she did know that if she stayed where she was; she would be alone. And that was something that Lily feared the most.

“I’m coming with you.”