Spiders, spiders everywhere!

That is it!! I have officially had it with the bugs. I seriously have seen them everywhere in this basement. They are on the carpet, on my tv, in the bathtub, between the shower curtains, on the walls, on my sock, all over my closet, and yes, thrice in my bed. Ugh!

I love the house I live in. The layout is beautiful, the roomys are great, and the AC runs all year. But the basement bugs have got to go.

I read online that if you read learn more about your fears, you might be able to think of them more logically than what you were believing before.

So I pulled up pictures and articles about the furry little creepers. It didn't help. I actually started to dream about the pictures and even worse; I had a dream about spiders coming out of my computer while I was blogging. Luckily, it was only a dream and no spiders have appeared during this post.

Sariah's growing up

This post is dedicated to the girl that if full of crazy imagination and random passions. The girl I've almost forgotten.

I have not been my normal self. I'm lackadaisical and extremely unmotivated to do almost anything. I feel as though all I do now is work and sleep, work and watch TV, work and shower - all not exciting.

This week I will be working my full-time job at FedEx and spend most of the nights in the Customer Service box at Kohl's.
This week my TV broke and seriously, I cried a bit.
This week I started to have insomnia, again.

I've been doing nothing since I've been working the two jobs. My social life is nonexistent and it seems as though late night TV has become my best and most dependable friend.

I'm not happy with this uneventful life.

I have the best personality to find the worst in any situation. I am a pure pessimist. I have depression and I use it as a crutch whenever I can; I cry whenever there is a reason to, I'm starting to avoid social gatherings full of people I love, I seem to punish myself for things I can't control, I don't spend enough time with my friends and family, I never even get ready for the day...

We live in a world where it is socially acceptable to constantly put yourself down. I've accepted it full hearted and I've been living a life that isn't me.

ENOUGH ALREADY!

Today I've decided I need to find happiness and bring it back in my life. I deserve it and it's time for me to start living the right way.


I am GIRLY I am a DANCER I love my FRIENDS I'm an AUNTIE
I am FREE I am LOVED I am SPIRITED I SING I have FAMILY

I'm a WRITER
I am LOUD I am Hopeful I am TALENTED I have STYLE I get FREAKY

Happiness, please help me find you. Because this girl, right here, needs you.